Two T's:

Me: PTSD, attachment difficulties, "highly" reactive, anxiety, self sabotager (in their words)

T1: Been working with for about a year, we have a great personal relationship, I like her, get along with her, and she knows how to calm me down. I have a very strong parental attachment to her.

She doesn't push me very hard though, or move me forward much. It's solid talk therapy. It's been a great help for dragging out some past trauma and helping me feel loved. Still working on that last part, but it would happen with time and her patience.

T2: Newbie in my life. I've called her just about every bad name I can think of. I kind of hate her tone, her approach, and the way she asks questions. I think she cares, but she is blunt and honest. She is more CBT oriented, maybe DBT, I'm not sure. She wants to move me forward and in a couple of sessions she's pointed out so many things T1 never did (things which I see clearly, and I think T1 must have saw, but it's not her style to point those things out I guess?). I go back and forth between wanting to hit her and thinking "Wow that's right, that's exactly what I've done my whole life, I just never noticed."

I can't have them both. Which would you choose?