I understand how you feel when you are away from someone you obviously care a lot about. I love the man I have been away from for the last 6 months, but he has a serious drinking problem that cost him his ex-wife and two daughters a couple of years ago. I CANNOT be with him because of the rages he has when he gets drunk..I have PTSD and this type of behavior "triggers" me terribly. I have put up with having to leave him for weeks at a time, many many times, because he chooses to get drunk. I also wonder if he has gotten lonely enough to see someone else; since we talk frequently he says he will wait on me to return. This is the longest I have been away from him and don't know if I can go back to his home because that's the place I was when he chose to traumatize me with his yelling at me..his behavior may sound simple to others but it bothers me greatly. I do hope you figure out what's best for your own well being. I keep praying for the strength and guidance to know what I should or shouldn't do, in my situation. Take care...