Hey I can’t reply to your dm so I’m posting my reply...

I would feel horrible if I couldn’t see him. All he does is meds so it’s not a big deal what we talk about. I’m just worried that maybe he might be misreading me. I honestly wish that I could just be friends with him in like a real way like going out to eat or whatever having a drink. Like I know he’s already spreading boundaries having me as his last appointment and spending time with me in the office alone. My friends and family keep telling me I need to go see somebody else because it’s getting really odd but just the thought of like not being able to be around this person even nominally really upsets me. I feel like I would literally just be losing a friend. And a friend that I’ve grown really close with. I know that they talk a lot about transference and how therapy relationship is really one-sided and you can’t love your therapist because you don’t know them. But what if you do know them? what if you know their likes and dislikes and their experiences and feelings?