I'm barely coping for almost 3 days. This is awful. I don't even feel sad, but I believe this is depression. I don't hardly get out of bed. I have no interest in anything, but reading on line. I tend to my bf and just go back to bed. I have a hard time even brushing my teeth.

I can't keep free-falling down like this. So I made what for me was a huge decision. I started arrangements to get my bf admitted to a facility for a week or two. I don't even know if I'll be able to resume caring for him after that.

I'm surprised that I could just change like this practically over night. I literally fear that I'm going to wake up tomorrow, or the next day, and not be willing to get out of bed.

I hope my plan to change how I'm living will save me. I hope I didn't let it go too long. I am so depressed I wonder if I'll get better.