Yesterday at 3pm and tiny black spider with a red dot on its back bit me and it hurt so much, like stinging nettle. 2 hours later i had severe abdominal pain, back pain, neck pain, pain everywhere, difficulty breathing. Then i felt like i lost my mind. Auditory hallucinations, confusion, everything was like slow mo. I went to the hospital and they used antivenom but poison control said it was probably a black widow baby since they often hatch in winter, but not always. Antivenom made the confusion and hallucinations, severe anxiety go away. But today im still so tired and feel very sick. I will never be able to listen to iggy azaleas black widow song again. It was one of the worst experieces ive ever had. But i was told people very rarely die from black widows. I still feel very angry at that little spider. I did not corner it. I was cleaning the sink and it climbed on my index finger. I now no longer believe they are more afraid of us than we are of them. Little SOB. Ruined my day. I hope this doesnt effect the progress ive made in regards to my mood and anxiety.