My life and career gone to hell, all in one fell swoop.

First, I was reduced from full-time to part-time in my job last summer.

Next, I am being demoted and the majority of my role is now being outsourced to a consultant in my field. I must have failed in my job somehow. HR has not yet explained to me what happened and if my hours will be impacted again. HR is out of the office for a while.

I have failed to obtain a full-time position in my field, despite all my best efforts to study and be knowledgeable in my field.

I have failed personality tests and skills based tests.

I am a complete failure, and I am dying inside. I am at total loss.

I think I am going to have to change career directions because I am such a failure.

I have not failed anything really in my whole life.... I've given up on certain career directions, but I have not really failed to date.

And now I have. I want to just die.