I saw my pdoc and she wasn't to pleased with me. I go back in 3 weeks to see if my meds need adjusted or changed. She thinks I am depressed even though I don't feel it. I am a diabetic and should be testing my blood sugar at least once a day. I haven't been doing it and the doc asked me why I just told her that I just don't. She said it's gonna kill you don't you care I basically told her no. I'm not afraid to die. I won't kill myself but I'm not afraid of it. Because I told her that she thinks I have anhedonia (the inability to feel pleasure) and so therefore I am actually depressed. I know what depression feels like doc and this isn't it. I got a little irritated at her although I stayed nice. She has only been my doc for not even a year yet. She probably just doesn't know my baseline yet. I'm pretty stable right now. Just because I'm not afraid of death doesn't make me depressed. I know my chances of living to an old age aren't good not with having bipolar and diabetes, and other physical health issues. I just accept it. What's wrong with that? To me nothing.