((((90)))) I never considered you to be a bad person. Struggling terribly with mental unwellness, yes, but not bad.

I will send you links for sites for those who have had an abortion and are not sure they made the right decision. We all do the best we can at the time of any decision making like that.

Narcissism is another of the really tough disorders, and it will be harder now that you won't be able to fully trust a T, as you need to be able to. I hope the other T lost more than his job! What he took from you, what he caused, is unspeakable for me.

Since this path is difficult, if you can trust us at PC, then do share along the way, and help us guide you. Using a general concensus of members you have known here for a long time might not be such a bad way to think.

The path is a long one, but it appears you are taking a good one now... best wishes.