Today, I got a massage. I was so excited for it. And it was nice. So I don't know why I feel disappointed. I think I am starving for emotional intimacy. Today I really felt like.....I didn't measure up. I don't know why. I'm being kind to myself now though. I got some food and a piece of cake from a nearby cafe, and I got a book from the library. I don't know WHAT my deal is. I am really hungry for something, emotionally. Sometimes its like I can't get enough. But I am going to sit down now and journal. Then, maybe I will go snowshoeing.