Hi freewill,

sounds like it has been a tough time for you. The loss of a pet can be a huge trigger i know. If this dog helped you with your trauma, it can be even more devastating. I lost a pet, and to this day have dreams, were I wake up sobbing. He had been my protector.

Perna has suggested some very interesting ideas, I myself will have to try them, the idea of changing the ending and then hoping you dream that seems like a great thing to try.

I hope things are improving