I know that manic I can do it all. But, this is more of an I'll try it because I'm bored, feeling stagnant, lonely in all respects, and have been so disconnected from it all. I'm also dealing still a bit with a failed marriage even though it ended a year ago. My ex-aversary(wedding anniversary) is in a few days and the divorce day is middle next month, the middle. Yes. That day. The one nobody would want. I feel like the one nobody would want and being open gives me the opportunity to be a one for someone, in my opinion. Effit. I'm at the gym now