i ve been posting allot today. i think its b/c i really want to talk to my T. i have this wierd urge to delve into talking about abuse which i havent done since the origional confession. I dont know what i want to say. just that i need to acknowledge it again. i just want to say (which i havent outloud). that T -.. xxxx molested me (sorry about the xxx's. im still embarrassed to say who sometimes) . its ugly and horrible isnt it. im not sure why. i just want to talk. im not triggered i dont think.