I feel ever so much as lonely. I stay at my parents' but don't feel I have a home. I'm at work there, to take care of Mom. It pays in sleeping quarters on the floor and about a meal a day. I have an app in for public housing and it can't get here soon enough. I spend almost all my "me time" at the gym because I'm not poked at verbally here. Every time I go back, I'm jabbed one way or another verbally. I have no RL friends at this point but am trying some. I have no SO either. So many people that said we'd be friends forever have disappeared to me. I have kids but they don't care if I see them, even when I schedule it.