I do understand this feeling. I have to say I have felt it for a very long time too. I have been a victim of ghosting of god knows how many years. You are absolutely right, how could you not take it personally? My advice - just connect as much as you can online. Now, that may not be good advice, because a lot of toxicity happens online, but I have made a lot of friends on chats and forums over the years.

I do very much know what it is like to be alone. I have no significant other or kids either, but I have been fortunate to grab hold just a few friends, and I hold on to them for dear life. But trust me, I remember that dark place.

All I can do is extend my hand to you at this point. It may not seem like much, but if you want to talk, I am just a PM away.