Well you are doing really well! Reaching out here is a really big step, and I am really proud of you for it!

Hang in there. Keep posting, and just connect as much as you can.

I would love to sit here and tell you to not say "you can't" but I have been where you are so I know that won't be helpful. The truth is "you can" becasue you are here right now, and even though you may not see it, that is a huge accomplishment.