Recently, being a teenager, I’ve been watching slashers (Friday the 13th, All Through the House (2015)) and other violent movies (Rampage (2009)). I asked myself why I enjoyed these films, and I thought it was because I liked the deaths (in the case of the slashers) and because I just liked the idea of a guy rampaging through a town (Rampage). That same night, I started having a “fantasy” where I rampaged through a neighborhood, invaded people’s houses and destroyed them. I also had a fantasy where I rampaged through a town shooting people. This has scared me a lot, I would NEVER act on these thoughts, and I think the only reason I “enjoyed” them was because I liked the idea of rampaging through a certain location. The only comfort I could find was that violent videogames existed.

However, things got even worse when I started hurting dogs, children and my family in my fantasies. This scared me to no end, as if the last fantasy wasn’t scary enough. All those things above were the subject of my OCD intrusive thoughts a long time ago, but the truly scary thing is that I think I felt a tiny bit of “pleasure” from the thought. When I first had the fantasy, I felt nothing but fear and disgust, but after that, I started feeling pleasure. I’m worried that my fantasies could show the “true” me. Could it be that I’m having these fantasies because I’m “curious” about being a complete monster? Complete Monster - TV Tropes

This has really worried me. I’ve been having panic attacks. Do you think I’m dangerous? Any help would be nice. Are there any advice, comforting thoughts and/or other things you could offer me?