Hi friends, just wanted to do another update if anyone was wondering

I started classes on Monday. They are all in Spanish, but three of them are geared toward international students so the professors speak slowly and make sure we understand. My other class is psychology, which I love, but it is intended for native Spanish speakers so it is very difficult for me. I almost dropped it but I decided to stick with it!

Mornings have been very difficult for me. I don't want to get out of bed, I feel hopeless and like I can't do this, like I need to go home. I often feel like I want to die. But once I get out of bed and start doing things, I feel better. I am often kept up at night with thoughts of suicide. But again, during the day when I am studying, in class, with friends, exploring my new city, etc. I feel better. So I wish mornings/nights weren't so bad but I'll take it as long as my days are okay.

My living situation has improved, too, I have adjusted to living with someone else after being on my own for so long. I also have been eating healthier which is very good for me, when I was living on my own my diet was crap lol.

Thank you to anyone who reads this or cares haha I appreciate having a place where I can talk about this, it's hard to talk to others outside of PC about the intersection of BP and studying abroad.