Oh I totally get this. I understand what you mean about wanting to be friends more than what you are, and you feel like he feels that too but you feel weird asking. All of it, totally relate to.

I am actually gonna bring up being friends after therapy at my next session, well assuming I don't vomit out of fear LOL

I hope somehow you are able to have a convo like that too at some point! Keep us posted on how it goes