We don’t see each other a lot right now, just saw each other a few weeks ago and then I’m going down there af the beginning of March. We’d make it more frequent if our jobs allowed, but his is a M-F and based on his productivity. I’m an RN, so mine is far more flexible, and I have 5 day off stretches where I can travel to see him without a thought of taking time whereas he doesn’t have the same flexibility, and can’t always take time off work. So yeah, he’s taking a long weekend in March

And speaking of my job being more mobile, I’ve already begun to apply to travel nurse agencies. Not so that I can move where he is—I’ve told him that they’d be temporary for now while my stuff stays at home—but so that we can at least properly date and see how things are. I’m totally fine with it; I’ve wanted to travel for some time now, and I’m dissatisfied with my current work situation. I’m likely taking an assignment based in my home state, first. So yeah, there is a plan.

I know that the distance is part of what is difficult, but I don’t want to screw things up in the meantime. I don’t know that it’ll be better once we’re closer; he has his own abandonment issues in relationships (long story). He is fully open to me about this, and about going “all in” and having it blow up in his face numerous times. I’ve seen it happen to him; I get it. He likes me, a lot, and wants me to be near him but he’s not going to go head over heels in love and want to like, marry me while I’m here and he’s there.

I’m probably rambling. I just don’t want it to seem like I’m moving for a guy—with travel nursing there’s always the option of coming home in 13 weeks