I don't know. Do you mean consistency? how can we trust that "WE" meaning you and the relationship with T still exists outside your vision? Only time and going through the pain of wondering will resolve this. I think the pain of wondering and trying to fathom it all out is one of the steps forward. I dont think its possible to just wake up feeling that trust or there would be nothing to build the relationship on. this pain we go through IS THE RELATIONSHIP! I am coming to realise. I think.

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