I don't know. Do you mean consistency? how can we trust that "WE" meaning you and the relationship with T still exists outside your vision? Only time and going through the pain of wondering will resolve this. I think the pain of wondering and trying to fathom it all out is one of the steps forward. I dont think its possible to just wake up feeling that trust or there would be nothing to build the relationship on. this pain we go through IS THE BUILDING BLOCKS OF THE RELATIONSHIP! I am coming to realise. I think.

(())hugs