I couldn't tell you when my depression started ( I think, I started going down hill about a yr ago) .. but I fell really low about a month ago. I had my Highs and low's and now I am in a low I cant get out of!

I want my old me back!

We moved 6 months ago to a amazing place, right by the ocean, where there is mountains, forest as far as the eye's can see. It is wonderful! Much better than the flat lands of Illinois. I always wanted to be in a place like this! Now, I cant even enjoy it!

I totally understand how you feel.. One minute on top of the world.. the next minute looking out from under the rock!

If you would have asked me a few mths ago who Kathy was and I would have told you! Now, I look in the mirror and don't know the person I am. I can't get back my old life. Its not because we moved ( I don't want to move back ) but I cant get with the program anymore!

I was always the outgoing person, ready to try anything! ( twice if I liked it.. he he he ) Now, getting up and out of bed in the morning is a chore!

I am sure we can get past this.. but not quick enough for my standards! I want it yesterday!

Kathy