I was diagnosed with bpd. My therapist broke the news to me like if it was a death in the family. At the time I had no idea what that was or what bpd stood for. Basically she got a blank face out of me and I guess she was looking for some type of reaction. Meanwhile I’m looking at her like the lights are on and there’s no one home. I feel that I have some parts of bpd but not all. I’m impulsive and I could be destructive to myself but destructive within reason. I can go from 0-10 really quick if someone makes me upset. Then I’m avble to cut certain people out of my life easily. That’s dependent on what their role was in my life and how they have treated me. I refuse to let go of my impulsivity. It’s whats helped me survive in this world. However My norm is to be very caring but with one eye open. I’ve let certain slip because I have adapted a heart for those and I get where they’re coming from. Throughout the day I’m great unless someone does or says something that interferes with my life. I’m getting better when it comes to dealing with a crisis.