Sometimes, I feel like I almost want to act on my thoughts. I am fascinated by complete monsters (people that feel no remorse for what they do, no matter how horrible they are).

I’m horrified by complete monsters, and I always worry that I might be one, but I also like the respect and fear they get. I’m also fascinated by how evil their actions can be. It seems to make me want to act on my intrusive thoughts, which I don’t. Being a teenager isn’t easy.