Yes, I struggle with this. Like others have said, this kind of struggling is not limited to people with DID, but I think perhaps it is worse when there are various parts with various ways of coping. I have parts who want to go to bed and hibernate, parts that want to stay busy, parts that want to lash out, parts that want to beg, parts that want to deal with it, parts that are convinced that I can't, parts that want to sever the relationship etc.

Having that internal conflict is very destabilizing for me.