Thanks, It discourages me somewhat. But it this wouldnt be the first time I have done this. The beauty with my Bipolar is that it is cyclothymic. I have studied an intensive amount of neruophysiology and been very careful in the past. I have four control mechanisms. Buporopion SR and XR, when depression sails in, I take in as much stimulants as I can handle without overkilling my heart rate or blood pressure or causing toxic damage to my kidneys or liver. Then I have Seroquel and Risperdal. Risperdal cuts off the energy within 24 hours, but leaves it burning, Seroquel will knock me out flat cold, until my brain is done rebooting. Im still very tempted though.