Thanks. No one has any idea, what I have been brewing in my mind. I find this a safe place to get advice and listen to others before acting. The last time I put myself into this, is when my ex-wife ran up her credit cards, I was facing a choice. Either skip credit card payments and risk getting screamed and yelled at and probably have the crap being beat out of me, or put food on the table. I worked so many hours for a month, it was unreal. I made about 2.5 times more than my normal pay. Paid off all the bills, ex-wife was ungrateful, but at least I got to eat. Yeah it was a little exhausting when I threw water on the fire. But if you makes you feel better. I am going to at least sleep on it tonight.