I have been told I am very "intelligent" by a psychologist ... maybe I am maybe not ... I catch myself cussing more than I like ... I always feel bad as it means I lost control ... I started as a youth I believe as a way to keep people at arms length ... I can ( and have been very violent before ) .. cussing to me was my way of saying it's getting serious for me so back off ... as I have aged it has slowed greatly and now is more a habit than a protective device ... though it still is a way to keep people at arms length ... I have seen my son get so mad ( mostly at himself ) that I really wish he would cuss as I believe it would help him let go of the anger that now he just carries with him ... so I see both sides ... I feel it can serve a useful purpose ... what I wish was that no one would ever have a ( reason ) to use it for whatever reason ... my story ... I can not know or understand your story from your perspective ... but I wish you peace and love .... Tigger