Candy bear I know exactly how u feeel!! I get that sicky feeling, low mood swings, one minute i think i'm happy, the next i'm low again.

I guess its how we were raised and dictated too. I too am so familiar with questions and then negotiations. For example, "you should do this or do that", but "oh u probably wouldn't like that because of this or they would eat u alive", just crap like that!

PLus add some sex abuse on top of it and mixed emotions and promises, talk about WOW, no wonder abused people have so many
problems later in life. Makes u feel like snapping!

Your not a freak but if it helps i feel like that myself lots of times. I look around and wish i had been brought up in a friends home or where someone seems i know has it all together...

oh well, whats to be will be i guess, i hope that helped, take care.....