Remember the days when you were able to hold onto him? When you could have a conversation with him in your head? When you could feel like he was there for you even when he wasn't physically present? Or maybe there was just general "feeling" of him being there with you or "in your corner" so to speak.

Try to think about the reasons why that seems impossible now. Talk to him about that. Because I know you had times when those things existed... so I'm wondering why they have gone.... why he has gone.

I think it is something more than trust issues. Who really trusts their T completely? Does anyone? I don't know. For me, it seems doubful that there will ever come a point in which I can 100 percent trust him on ever issues-- how can I 100 percent trust that he is not going to leave me?

I hope that you can discuss this with him tonight.

XOXOXOXOXO