PInk, Perna,

Thanks.

Yeah Pink, I know I was able to have conversations with him in my head as recently as 2 weeks ago; But, (Perna) I cannot conjure up any feeling that is specific that goes along with that; and if I try to have a conversation with him now, it feels phony. He's just not real anymore.

I suppose it has something to do with the rupture but I did tell him all my feelings surrounding this and we talked through all.....

It's a void and I feel like I have to go in there this evening and fake it. Had a difference of opinion at work today and I thought, "oh that's what I'll talk about tonite, it feels safe."

What is going on here?

Not sure at all.

xoxoxoxo