i don't know where to put this....at this moment, i am not extremely depressed though it is up and down. My husband got laid off of work on Friday and can't seem to grasp that we are DIRT poor. I am making sacrifices....such as no therapy for a while, rescheduling psychiatric apppt a few more weeks out to try to get some money together, other small things......

he seems to be taking it in stride and was recnetly reprimanded at his job....then two days later, they let him go??? makes no sense to me and he's not getting the IDEA that we have to change our lifestyle.
no matter what i say, he shoots it down. However, someone else can say the exact same thing, and he listens and considers it. I throw my hands up. I give up.

He has told me the 8years we have been together that he doesn't really b elieve in depression. I just need to "not think about it." despite hospitalizations, meds, therapy...does not believe in it. One guy at his former work explained that he had bad depression and that he had to find and change up the meds every now and then and the he would feel more even.....my husband listens to him and gives me a lecture about meds that he used to vehemently deny and say i should not take...........he told his boss "my wife is depressed." as some excuse of why he has been a jackass at work. Since when did he finally believe that depression exists?

We are broke but still young. He thinks he's just going to put it all on the credit card and live the way we usually do. He's sitting at home right now trying to tell me (while I'm at work) how to take care of a completely different situation.
I am frustrated with him, feel so stressed, feel so angry, want to get away, want to smash things........
he is taking his anger out on me too. Yelling at me for stupid things, it's all MY fault, why don't you make more money???? is what he says.....

im not the one who got laid off. I feel like i am going to explode and once the anger deflates, the depression comes sinking in and i begin thinking nonrational thoughts about how i'm just not meant for this world.

I am angry, hurt, frustrated, all of this and more. And i don't want to go home tonight. Not to all of this %#@&#! and more.