Mayam, welcome to PC my friend.

I can't even begin to guess what's really up with the girl you wrote about. But you're not an idiot, you just gave it a shot and I'm sorry it didn't work out. But do yourself a favor and run away from this girl. Let her sort out her crap and maybe one day this romance can start up again. But right now she's clearly got stuff going on and you're left in misery. It's not good for you and, well, it doesn't sound like you have much of a choice.

Being alone sucks. No argument there. But you wont always be. Try to take a little comfort in that.

Congrats on the promotion. I know the long hours and things are taking a lot out of you but it's still a huge accomplishment. I hope you get a bit of a boost out of that emotionally. This could be the start of a career and having that makes relationships a lot easier.

As for how you relate to relationships, that's harder. That you'll have to work on in therapy because how we deal with romance is a deep and complicated thing. So much so that I'm sometimes shocked that people ever make it work. But they do and so can you. You wont always be alone so don't focus on being that way forever.

Well, I seem to be very opinionated today. Heh, I hope there's something of use to you in all of that.

Good luck to you and be safe.

Cyran0