Thank you everyone

We were able to break our lease early ( should have been April) Our landlords became friends so they understood I just HAD to leave.

My T and Pdoc work for Centerstone which have an office is all surrounding counties. I have a intake appt for the next town over, I live in a very rural area so there isn’t much choice.

My T is now almost 70 and has had some health issues so eventually he is going to retire. I “ think” maybe my having to see another T might be healthy, I have no transference issues with my old T , it was me that “ left” so I think going back to him even if something could figure out it would then be him retiring and I would probably not handle that well. He helped me learn to live again and we walked together through my life that had so much trauma and abuse. There will never be another “Richard “ I’m just grateful I found him 6 years ago when I couldn’t find a single reason to take another breath.

The real kicker is I do not like female T’s at all, everyone I ever saw even IP are to chatty, bleh I don’t do well with chatty fluff people and the 2 T’s that accept Medicare at both places are women and Richard told me numerous times “ you and ______ will not get along at all” “ he gave me a heads up on them because he was going in for major surgery last year” and wasn’t sure if he would make it.

I’m a very goal oriented person I need to focus on a problem and work/ barge through it. Plus males are blunt in general.

I’m wired weird I know