I don't know what's going on with me. I recently got off Zoloft, which was the worst thing in the world. I was having terrible withdrawals, and I actually thought I was going to die. I guess I thought after I finished with that, everything would be better, but it's not.

I've been having really bad mood swings for no reason. I go from irritable and/or suicidal to absolutely happy and productive. I feel like there's no future for me, and every day, I wish I were dead. I snap at people, and I feel horrible. I just can't control it. Sometimes, I sleep very little and feel amazing, and other times, I need at least eight hours.

The irritability is one of the worst. One moment, I'll be happy and warm, and the next, I'm thinking about breaking up with my boyfriend or I'm yelling at my parents. I'm in college already. Shouldn't this moodiness be done?

I've also stolen before, which is one thing worse than the irritability. I started about a year ago, when I was on a different medication entirely. Medication doesn't seem to have an effect on the theft. I don't do it often. I've probably done it three or four times, but that's too many.

I feel like I have no control, and I want to get help. How do I do that? I've tried several therapists and psychiatrists. I'm thinking about going to a specialist who knows what I'm actually dealing with, but I have no idea what my problem is.

I want to get better, but how?