For a first year of therapy I didn't care. I thought "it's fine, I'll have some free time as well". But now (after 1.5y) my T took 1 free week. And I feel really awfull
I'm sad that she's not here when I need her... and this sadness is really strong (I even cried!). It's like abandonment - and it's in the worst time for me :-/
We don't have any contact between sessions so I just have to wait...

I also think that it's good. I didn't feel like that before so it probably means that I developed some attachment and maybe transference. It's something worth discussing.
But still.. so painful