De,
I feel the same way about having kids. but I did lose one. not my fault, just gods way of taking over. I think he knew better than i did. and he was right at the time. but i know the yearning for a kid. i know the posts you have read. I had to back away from that too.

It unfortunately never ends, Im 39 and that was 8 years ago. I still feel the same way. But it DOES get easier. It sucks yes, but it gets easier to deal with. I hope you can feel better soon.

Colleen