((((((((((((((((((((Leslie)))))))))))))))), you have every right to vent. Like so many have said here--we can't imagine how this must be like for you.

I can see how disheartening it is to go through these surgery's and continue with meds and you are still not feeling well. In my words I guess I would say, "It's not fair"!!! I wish we could give you everything you need to get better. Unfortunetely we can't, but we can tell you how much we care about u.

You hold a special place in my heart. I think about you everyday. And I miss you dearly. I know I have not been around much and not called. But this does not mean that I don't care or that I don't think of you. Sometimes others are afraid that when they are not in a good place--well we don't want to bring more stress to them. Anyway.....I kind of got of topic, sry.

I just want u to know that you are my dear friend and my thoughts are with you. Leslie, don't worry so much about posting how u feel. Its okay to speak whats on ur mind. Please keep talking, get mad, curse, let go of what u need to. Thats what we are here for!!!

I love you my sweet darling buddy....I am with u in heart and mind....

Justy