I try to remember the past when people bring up past stories. Most of the time I can’t remember and feel really helpless. Through out the day I try to remember and every so often I do remember. I accomplish this by thinking of my past stories that I do remember and try hard to remember what else happen when I was around that age…. Now I don’t know what you would call this but I am positive that I have repressed a lot of my childhood memories.
Sometimes I “unlock” a memory and I’m left feeling frustrated and upset, thinking to myself that I am useless and a failure, even a hypocrite at times…. I say to myself… how could you not know that was wrong…

I will post the memories that hunt me later in time. I don’t really talk or trust anyone in my personal life but with this website I hope me being kind of anonymous will help me open up more.

So I ask all of you, do you think reawakening your repressed memories is a good healthy thing? Or am I just digging myself into a deeper darker hole?