Thank you everyone for your kind words. Anxious Minds, I have a feeling your mind works similar to how mine does. Since I made this post I started doing some research, because the strangest part about this new wave of depression is that it surfaced when I started focusing on being healthier and re-instating my meditation practice that I had been neglecting. But the funny thing is, if I look back at other times in my life that I've struggled with these feelings, it has predominately occurred during times I was meditating. When I was 12, I had my first episode with sleep paralysis which was triggered by meditation. I found some interesting research online correlating meditation with depression, especially in those with predisposition to mental illness. So I'm taking a break from that for now to see if it helps. Has anyone else had a similar adverse reaction to meditation (assuming that is in fact what this is)?