I know its not about me, its about that man last time (who definitely was her patient) or anyone else this time being more important than me.

at this point im not sure i want any explanation. maybe i want it to be the last straw to help me quit therapy.

i didnt plan it this way, but im tired of feeling hurt by her. my old T used to hurt me because he was too professional, she, because she isnt professional enough... or so i perceive her. im just tired. she helped me as she could, now she can no longer help me in any way.