Hello depzeid:I'm sorry you are feeling so depressed.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral!

I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.
From what you wrote, what occurs to me is that perhaps you have not fully recovered from your divorce. Getting over this type of experience takes time. I see you list yourself as being in Egypt. So I don't know what kind of counseling or therapy services are available to you. But seeing a counselor or therapist, if that is a possibility for you, may be the best way to work through what's going on. In the meantime, though, here are links to some articles from PsychCentral's archives that may be of some interest:
https://psychcentral.com/blog/how-to...tionable-tips/
https://psychcentral.com/blog/how-to...after-divorce/
https://psychcentral.com/lib/extremi...se-of-divorce/
https://psychcentral.com/blog/7-ways...ter-a-divorce/
I don't know, of course, if you're here simply seeking advice with regard to this particular concern or if you plan to hang in here with us.

However, should you be planning to continue on (we hope you do)... may I suggest you introduce yourself over on PC's New Member Introductions forum? Here's a link:
https://forums.psychcentral.com/new-...introductions/
There's a lot of support that can be available here on PC. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more a part of the community you will become.

Plus there are the chat rooms where you'll be able to interact with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) So please keep posting!