Well, I’m still waited my got my arm surgery having rescheduled once. I’m going in on February 14 I think if I make it! I’ve called the doctors office four times trying to get resssurance that everything is going to be okay. They sounded pretty frustrated last time I called. I’ve scheduled another pre-op with the doctor and I feel like a psycho mess having to get so much assurance. My history of isolation and the fear that I really need somebody right now is crushing me like a vice. If I don’t have this surgery I might be a cripple - it’s such a cruel choice. All I can see is me laying in a bed with a huge cast not able to move - a bit dramatic I hope!!!!! Anyway this is a ****ing mess 🤓🤓🤓 thanks for listening!!!!!