FallDT, My heart is raining for you. Your post above was and is me. I am older than you, but 10 years ago a trauma forced me to leave my job and state for my protection. I was a successful IT professional and an avid outdoor lover of mountains, valleys, rivers and oceans. Adventure traveler extraordinaire. I have been unable to support myself for the past 8 years and finally exhausted my retirement savings 1 year ago. I've been fighting for my disability for over 8 years and I'm still fighting. I feel your pain in this journal post every single day.

Love and the importance of it in healing has been swirling around in my mind a couple of days. LOVE and LAUGHTER are both healing in a medicinal way that is magical. I have known love and it's great power in my life. I just haven't had enough. Fear and my severe trust issues are my greatest barriers in handing over my heart to give love a try. I am learning that when I acknowledge a gratitude I am able to give myself permission to love myself. It's a start and at least I tried. Sending you healing energy today in the winds!