You know, its as if i've been walking on a rope between two mountains... and im tired, so tired. I dont want to fall down, not yet, and i dont want to go on walking or go back or stay there... right now i just want to sleep on the floor. Stop being on that rope.

My T, she feels only like another interaction to manage and im too tired to do it. Why should i go on if i can stop and have something less to worry about? Right now she feels like another duty, another worry, not something that makes living easier, it makes it harder. Or so it feels right now... i know it will probably different once i quit, but i dont feel like i can go on right now...