My T was blank slate in that he didn't reveal his thoughts and feelings or reassurances or affirmations, aside from interpretations. The emotional unavailability and neglect triggered my attachment issues.

There were a few select times where he decided to be kind, and I now see the pattern of when he chose to be that way. I don't think this reflects his persona but rather the therapy technique he used with me. He mistakenly thought i was positioned for the more challenging psychoanalytic therapy rather than more supportive therapy, which is what I really needed.

It ended up harming me in the long run. I had a good experience with the T before him, who was kind and warm but also challenging at times. He balanced that with giving me my space. I should have stopped there, with that T.

The only good thing is at least I won't still be in therapy 20 years from now. I never planned to be in it for very long. Was caught up in trauma bonding.