Yesterday, I had a visit with my surgeon. I had cosmetic surgery last year. Unfortunately, I need a revision, where I need to go over anesthesia again.
The process of waiting to have this revision has been emotionally difficult. I waited a while to see if my results would improve until I'm even "eligible" for the surgery. Now, I am. We went over the procedure.

The surgeon said he'd knock down the cost. It's still twice more expensive than anticipated. I am still going to follow through. What's mostly bothering me more than anything though, is the fact that I will have to wait a long time to get in for my surgery. I thought I'd be able to schedule a month from now.
He has no availability. The earliest appointment they had is April 13th, but I cannot take that appointment since my to-be caregiver/family member will be unable to care me and has a birthday. We ended up having to make it for April 27. I had to schedule, or that spot would have been easily taken.

When important dates are scheduled that far in the past, I obsess and obsess daily to the point of almost making myself sick that something is going to go wrong that day, where I won't be able to make it. I need help being able to cope with impatience, especially when it involves something as big as a surgery. Any thoughts?

This has been emotionally draining. It was bad enough that 2.5 months after my surgery, we pretty much determined that a revision would be needed, but I did not get clearance to do it until up to this point (8 months post op). As you can see, I've been waiting for a while to be able to do this. Also, I did not anticipate the emotional rollercoaster that I would experience with getting the procedure done. Of course, the anxiety of hoping the outcome will be as expected is there as well.