T3: I am mad at the receptionist who decided that she (or her supervisor) was the one to make the call about whether I should come to session with shingles. I don't really care what they think. I just wanted to be sure that YOU are ok with it.

I find that I am rather distressed by missing the session. Which is weird. I have never felt bad like this before with you. I mean, I get it all the time with T1. But you?

So does this mean that I am attached to you? Lord, I hope not. I don't even want to go there. It feels like I am disappointed that I am not going to get the help that I want. Which makes me wonder if all of my "too attached" stuff with T1 was really about needing help and thinking he could deliver. Because that's where I am with you.

I guess I need to learn about what it really means to be attached, what it means to be needy, what it means to trust someone. I am going to try to stick with "isn't this interesting". See you next week, despite what the receptionist says.