Well, maybe some background on where im coming from on this will help? For the past ten years with current t, every time he announced a vacation or just a day off for the dentist, before i could stop myself i would emit some squeal of delight. Yay or yippee or good. It is STILL a point of contention, that i did it in the past, and that some vestige remains in the present.

But i dont APOLOGIZE for my reaction. My reaction is my reaction. I feel relief when he is gone. We both know the transference is strong and i felt relief when my parents left for work, or for the evening. And he says it doesnt exactly feel good to hear someone cheer that he will be gone. Which of course makes me laugh harder.

Earlier i compared t to aerobics class. This is more like a yoga class and somebody farted.