i feel like we've been pulling apart my childhood a pebble at a time ('cos that's all i could handle) and now i'm at a point where i just kinda wanna pull out the pebble that could bring the whole lot down.

it's scary, and it's also empowering. unlike my childhood, i have all the control now. i can pull that pebble; i can leave it where it is for a while longer; i can pull some more of the other pebbles around it. i can say nothing; i can say something; i can say ALL THE THINGS.

it's my choice, my decision. and while i know we're doing a lot of this work together, it's also my therapy. i'm ready to shake things up a bit, and i hope you'll be there for it.